Tomorrow, December 21, is my birthday. Yes, I’m one of those Christmas babies the
world always pities so. When it comes to public sympathy, being born on or near
Christmas seems to rival the dreaded February 29 birth date. (I have a
grand-niece who missed that by a couple of hours, sneaking in a bit before
midnight on the 28th during our last Leap Year.)
Though others may lament it on my behalf, I have
never minded the Christmas-time date. My parents always made sure to keep the
two celebrations separate. My birthday present, though it might appear beneath
the tree, was never wrapped in
Christmas paper and was always just as nice as the gifts given to any of my non-Christmas
siblings. Like them, I got to choose my favorite meal for dinner. (I didn’t
make it too tough on Mom; for years, my favorite was spaghetti.)
As I got older and more aware of the Christmas
hype all over the world, I began to feel that everyone in Christendom was
celebrating with me. Though that view may be a bit egocentric, it always kept
my birthday happy, and I loved that my dad liked to call me his Christmas
present. His first-born, I came home from the hospital on Christmas day—a
few long decades ago.
That brings me to the real angst of tomorrow. I
will be 64. Yikes!
I want to ask the cosmos, “How did this happen?
Wasn’t it just yesterday that I was a carefree girl? A happy new bride? A new
mom? A first-time grandmother? Though the girl inside me doesn’t feel much
different, the body is definitely letting me know it’s been around the block a
time or two.
My brand new left knee (replacement on Nov. 19) is
still making peace with the rest of me. One day I hope to lope up the stairs
again (there are five in front of my house) without the aid of a
strong man (thank goodness I have one!) to help pull me up.
Now my other joints are behaving as if they’re
jealous of the new knee and my muscles all wear out quickly whenever I dare to exercise.
Oh yes, this body is definitely feeling its wear.
Not only that, but my oldest grandson, Austin, has
just announced he’s found the lovely young lady he’s going to marry next May 29.
Within the next five years, I could be a GREAT-grandmother. Double yikes.
Of course there are compensations. For instance,
there are the darling grandchildren, from Austin down to Josh and Evie, born to
two different families six days apart and now eight months old. And their
newest little cousin is due next March. I wouldn’t trade one of them, not even
to have my 23-year-old body back.
Although I’m tempted to ask as the Fab Four did, “Will
you still need me, will you still feed me?” I know the most important person in
my life (my dear husband, the “strong man” I mentioned earlier) surely
will. He’s been an ideal nurse since my knee surgery. Not only
that, he owes me: He turned 64 last July.
While I may well mourn the passing of the good
health I once knew, the body that did what I asked of it whenever I asked, the
quick responses and ready ability, I count up the experiences, the joys, the
successes, the wonderful people in my life and know the years have been worth
it. Given the chance to be 23 again, I’d have to say “no thanks.” I love being
right where I am.
[NOTE: If you don’t recognize the Fab Four or the
lyrics, please go look them up. Some things even young folks should know!]
Susan, I loved your post. I can relate when it comes to what you said about birthdays and age and bodies!! Happy Birthday tomorrow and have a wonderful Christmas season.
ReplyDeleteHI Susan - I can relate to this in so many ways! Like you, I have a Christmas birthday--literally, December 25th in my case. I've also had family, parents, husband and kids, who cared enough to have a separate celebration, along with separate gifts, etc. And I'm old enough now to have creaky knees too, but I wouldn't give up all the good stuff that's happened to go back and be 23 again.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday tomorrow, Susan. I don't have a holiday birthday, but I can certainly relate to your comments about getting older - and, like you, wouldn't want to give up any of the years I've lived.
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